<3 times two

to you:

you're the only thing i can count on these days.

the world spins too fast. i close my eyes to enjoy the quiet and open them to a completely new place.

the only thing still standing is you. smiling weakly. telling me it's going to be okay.

you listen when i talk, even if it makes no sense. you tell me "things will get better" even if you dont think they will. they didnt. that doesnt matter now.

all that matters is what youve done for me.

i was sitting in class today just singing "two more days" over and over again to myself until i couldnt remember the words and had to hum.

i'm sorry for relying so much on you. i know my heavy heart is overbearing most of the time. thank you for helping me lift it up every once in a while.

the tables have turned. now you need me to lift your heavy heart.

and i swear to fucking god, ill be there helping you bear the weight until the end.

do you remember that summer?

sobbing at summer camp. alone. cabinmate cruelty. the second you noticed i needed you, you were there.

i do remember you were tired that day. weary, with your own problems. but you sat up with me, rubbing my back and telling me to fuck them all. that i was too good for them.

god, you mean so fucking much to me.
i only hope that i can help you half as much as you helped me.